I have had a very long hiatus from writing.
And I have missed it a lot.
There is something so satisfying about writing a post online and feeling that not only is it good for me to express myself, but that maybe, maybe, just one person might get something out of this today.
As someone who frequently reads blog posts online for the purpose of understanding myself and the world around me, I want to return to contributing to this online space. And since I’ve been away, a lot has happened. And today I am wanting to provide an update as to where I’m at in life:
Currently, I’m going through a lot of change. I recently made the big decision to leave my hospitality job in London that I’d been in for a year and a half, in order to pursue something greater.
The decision to leave my job came from my recent experience of participating in ‘The Artist way’ course. I took part in the widely renowned course by Julia Cameron after being recommended it by my therapist.
This course gave me so many things: new friends, time for quiet reflection, and most all, a new way of thinking. The process I experienced on the course built my self-awareness enough to realise all of the ways that my life wasn’t working for me.
It also taught me that what I can imagine for my life can also become my reality if I allow it to, and if I take active steps towards achieving it.
And so, my first step towards radical change was to start a savings account again. It may seem like a small thing, but this was the first step I took towards building my dream life.
Saving for my future has made me feel empowered, like I am not a victim to my circumstances, and like my dreams matter. I often think of Andy in Shawshank Redemption and his faith in freeing himself by taking one small action each day. Digging away at that tunnel, bit by bit, over the timespan of many years. That is how a savings account feels to me: perseverance and patience.
I have been putting away as much as I can afford each month, which isn’t the easiest process whilst living in London. However, I am managing it. Fast forward a few months and I have begun to seriously work towards the life I pictured in my mind whilst on the artist way course.
So here I am, right in the midst of planning for my potential future, which involves leaving London and working towards a career in photography and writing.
And so, I am picking up my writing again, not necessarily to make money from straight away, but just to express myself, to give back, and because I enjoy doing it.
Sending positive vibes to whoever is out there x
Agate Amara 